Saturday, April 25, 2009
I guess sorry's just wouldn't do anymore. I'm sorry friend that I forgot yet again. I'm so sorry BIMBO. I want so much to make it up, but I dare not. Just afraid that something might happen in school and I'll have to cancel again. I don't think you'll blame me (or maybe you will). I didn't say anything when I remembered cause I'm afraid of what I don't even know.
dearest BIMBO, HAPPY birthday.
HAHA I know you'll murder me when we next meet. Why don't we meet on the 6th of may(:
Friday, April 24, 2009
I am home (:
It's great to be home.
To fart as and when I like
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
I am homesick. It feels as if I got kicked out of the house because of something I never did. Sure tell me that it's all in my head. But it sure feels that way. A home that I'm forbidden to go to just because of a stranger.
I really want to roll and bounce in my bed. Hug my bolster and wrap myself in my blanky. I miss home. Maybe Abba's telling me I won't be able to take not being home if I go overseas to study. Oh what the heck.
Today was an awesome day. I took the wrong bus. Went all the way to CJC. CJC leh!! I was suppose to go bukit panjang interchange. Anyway, the CJC people were giving me weirrrrd looks.
DENISE + LE + NIC +FREE CONE DAY + Zac Effron made all the cursing and swearing worth while LOL.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
It's happening all over again. It works in cycles. Tiresome cycles. I'm just going to hug smile and ignore. And maybe pray that I wouldn't have to go through it myself in future.
Note to self. It's never worth it.
It doesn't help that the weather is crazy. It's hot and extremely humid.
She told some very unfavorable things about me to my teacher. Damn she's evil. Beyond evil. Trying to screw up his impression of me right? Never mind. Today, my ex teacher told me some very encouraging things. (: yeah Teachers WHO ACTUALLY DESERVE RESPECT. I rest my case.
(i'm still hoping you don't like me lah)
HOHO!! SEE JESUS IS MY FAVOR LAH((: YIPPY!!!
Saturday, April 11, 2009
I HAD FUN TODAY! I sang during performance today -FINALLY!
Went to Minds Cafe and played games with a whole group of them.
Went to chill with D and B at istana park(:
I'm tired and hungry. Didn't eat dinner. PFFFFY. At least we did something more constructive today as compared to the previous time we all met.
Wednesday, April 08, 2009
Desert Song.
This is my prayer in the desertAnd all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames
And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow
God knows what I'm going through right now, cause I don't even know what's happening. I pray for favor and shalom over my life. That whatever I say are but only words of grace and love. Not things said out of frustration and anger. The out-of-character behavior that's driving me crazy. My vocal chords failing me yet again at crucial time as this. Jesus, what's happening to me?
It's kind of weird to look at me and the mirror and say " Jer you're holy no matter what you've done.". Not because of what I've done, but because of what He did. Jesus I cannot, You can. I don't know, You know. I'm nothing, but You're my everything.
Monday, April 06, 2009
I WANT TO SING!! I WANT TO SING!!! I WANT TO SING!!!!
I'm going to sleep now.
I realised something today. And I'm extremely glad I did. Yeah me(:
Sunday, April 05, 2009
I always enjoy my every other saturdays, just like I did yesterday. Arrow was awesome-er than usual, and will progressively get even more awesome, for various reasons. Message was really good, what I really needed.
Blessings of deut 28. Never thought of it that way before! How Jesus fulfilled all the blessings. So I'm practicing his presence now(: I add a little drop of anointing oil in my water, and think, because He was whipped 39 times for my sickness. I'm healthy, my self-damaged vocal chords included. AMEN. So many nuggets of truth. Jesus never fails to blow my mind away(: I'm sure Mel Gibson is a blessed man for doing a movie like The Passion of Christ. How I wish I could hear yesterdays message again and again(:
I never felt so at home with my CG before. I mean although we're growing in number, but we're getting closer. So different from when I first joined (maybe cause then, I was new so I felt soooo foreign). Dinner with them is always a time of laughter and joy and great great fellowship.
God knows how much I look forward to every ARROW. His love, the companions He provided me with. He really knows me like no other(: Thank you ABBA(:
Friday, April 03, 2009
TGIF. Thank you Abba it's friday. I think? No rest, no relax. No sleeping in late, no sleeping till I think it's enough. We're going down to TPJC tomorrow, and I'am not quite looking forward to it . Don't get me wrong, I would really look forward if i could sing, but I can't. I haven't recovered fully yet, I don't want to bring the choir down neither do I not want to recover so it's four hours of good solid studying gone down the drain. I really hope that they come over next week, unlike previously we travelled all the way down there and they didn't quite come down. Wasn't really fair.
Stupid lizard, stupid sounds. Hope it dies really soon.
It's weird, when you don't get to hear two sides of the story, the other party seems to be at the wrong. See this is what lack of communication does to you. Oh wello. It's not for me to comment on, neither is it for anyone but them to comment on.
I really can't wait to go for HMcamp. For everything to be over-SFY. I want to pick up something new and interesting and I think I know just what it is. It's not offered in school though.....Jesus thank you for providing me with a like-minded friend(: